Listen to My Live DNTO Show on CBC: Stuff I Never Told My Parents

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Elan Morgan on CBC's DNTO

On October 7th, I did CBC's DNTO with Sook-Yin Lee "Live in Saskatoon: Stuff I Never Told My Parents". If you've ever been a fan of somebody for years and years, a fan of the national public radio and television broadcaster they work for, and a long-time subscriber to the podcast, and then if you were asked to take part as a storyteller in one of their live shows and later heard yourself on that podcast with that famous somebody, you might know what a surreal experience I just had.

I will be offering a course soon called "How to Look High Next to Famous People".

I will be offering a course soon called "How to Look High Next to Famous People".

Like a crazy person, I told a very difficult story to hundreds of people in person at the Broadway Theatre, and to thousands of people by extension over the radio, and I told it in front of both my parents and parents-in-law and a handful of old friends, and I'm so glad I did. It was an honour to work with Kaj Hasselriis and Sara Tate to refine my story before the show, and it was an honour to share the stage with Sook-Yin Lee and my fellow storytellers, Albert Jame and Ernie Louttit. There was a kindness and generosity strung throughout the entire experience that made it possible for me to get up there. Go, team!

Sook-Yin Lee and Kaj Hasselriis

If you'd like to hear my story on DNTO, you can do it in one of two ways:

I also think you should subscribe to the DNTO with Sook-Yin Lee podcast, because I have for ages, and it's always a great listen:

To everyone who was present at the show or listened through the radio, thank you. I still can't believe I get to link to it all on the CBC website like it's a real thing that actually happened.

Go, CBC!

Grace in Small Things No. 950

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  1. I got to witness this amazing sunset on Tuesday as it bounced off the trees across the river in Saskatoon.
  2. I had the opportunity to do the CBC DNTO with Sook-Yin Lee live show on Wednesday night, and it was an incredible experience.
  3. I told a very difficult story very publicly in front of both my parents and parents-in-law at that DNTO live show, and they all took it well. I'm so thankful for that.
  4. Aidan and I are heading to Grasslands National Park this weekend, which is the darkest dark sky preserve in Canada. I can't wait to see the night sky without light pollution. 
  5. I'm humming with excitement about hitting the road with Aidan tomorrow. I love long car trips with him.

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Elan Morgan is a blogger, designer and consultant, and speaker who blogs and works from, spreads gratitude through the social network, celebrates quality blogging with the, and speaks all over. She has been seen in the Globe & Mail, Best Health and Woman's Day magazines, TEDxRegina, and on CBC News and Radio. She believes in and works to grow both personal and professional quality, genuine community, and meaningful content online.

The Story That Keeps Circling Back

I am going to be telling a story at a CBC DNTO with Sook-Yin Lee live show today at 7pm in Saskatoon. It is a story I have told in lesser detail before. It is a hard story for me to tell.

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It is a story about my sobriety, and I am going to tell it with a lot of humour, because there is a lot of humour to be found especially in the hard things. In order to find this humour, though, I've had to dig through this story over and over and over. I've had to pull it apart and put it back together repeatedly so I can grok it.

I used extreme zoom here, so forgive the painterly blur, but this cow and I had a thing, and I had to record our thing for posterity. (click image to enlarge)

I told a shorter version of it first in 2012 as part of my TEDx talk, and I've told it again in person in bits and pieces when people have asked about it. Over the last two years, I have let it lie still for the most part. I had to pull it out again, though, when this DNTO thing came up.

As a result, I spent over four hours driving a two-and-a-half trip from Regina to Saskatoon while I repeated the story out loud over and over and over in the car so it would be ready to say out loud on stage two days later. 

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Spinning and respinning this story, finding all of its pieces and throwing out its nagging detritus, turned out to be a pretty heavy deal, which is why this normally two-and-a-half hour trip became four. I had to stop to talk to cows. I yelled at a skunk. I ate a Dairy Queen Blizzard. I walked through a field. I pulled over so I could belt out some Angel Olsen with my eyes closed. I crouched down in tall prairie grasses and listened to the breeze pick it up and play it against each other. 

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I watched my shadow stretch out alone but also at one with what lay before us. I was isolated and at one and devastated by loneliness and filled with the love of storied connection.

Stories do this deep tearing and healing within me. All things become the paradox of simultaneous brokenness and wholeness.

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It's a mad feeling to hold both things in your heart and know them. It means we're okay. Freedom rests within us.

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I've been in Saskatoon for a day-and-a-half now, stealing bits of time to wander and tell and retell and tell again this story I puzzle through, that I seem bound to say out loud at publicly recorded events in front of hundreds and, by extension, thousands of people. It's my weirdest accidental habit.

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I repeat getting naked and coming clean, both literally and metaphorically in the story, and metaphorically on stage.

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What a strange, broadcast repetition. I am clean, I am clean, I am clean.

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And this evening, I will say it again. I was lost. I was naked. I was reborn. I am clean.