1/365: New Year's Day

late night bathroom

I am being old.
It is what I do when the year is new.
I think of last chances,
I think of this mad race to the end,
I think of how dark seeds might wrest my soft tissue,
and I eat vitamins.
I criticize stiff knees
and pull up skin on the back of my hand
to see how long it takes to pull back.
I regret all the youthful sex I forgot
because I drank too much in my twenties.

But then I remember:
I know love now
better and more than I once did,
my orgasms are hard fists of bright memory,
and I am brave enough to see my sins
and raise them a finger on good days.

I am older now.
I am less terrible.
I am more loved.

#365poems at Schmutzie.com

Elan Morgan

Elan Morgan is a blogger, designer and consultant, and speaker who blogs and works from schmutzie.com, spreads gratitude through the graceinsmallthings.com social network, celebrates quality blogging with the canblogawards.com, and speaks all over. She has been seen in the Globe & Mail, Best Health and Woman's Day magazines, TEDxRegina, and on CBC News and Radio. She believes in and works to grow both personal and professional quality, genuine community, and meaningful content online.

Subscribe by RSS or
sign up to get new content in your inbox: